♥Laura

So all I have been doing is trying to be the me-est me that I can ever be. And all I get in return is doubts and disbelief.

Well done.

This feels like August, 2008 all over again. Deja vue or what? 

Why do I always have to wait? Why am I always the fool? After 7 years, seems like nothing has changed. And I will always be the one stuck at the same spot.

June 13th (eve of my English birthday):
I went to bed early because I was hoping that ahma would visit me in my dreams. But she didn't so I thought maybe she'd remember my lunar birthday instead because that's what she usually remembers.

June 19th (eve of my lunar birthday):
Went to bed even earlier because I came down with fever. Ahma didn't visit me again even though I kept waiting..

I miss ahma. I wonder what's keeping her so busy.

"I hate that feeling when you're about to cry and someone asks you if there's anything wrong or to cheer up and you try to smile but you just physically can't do it and eventually the effort of trying to smile for this one person has the tears spilling over. It makes me feel so defeated by life when I can't find the strengh to smile in those moments."

At work now but seriously stoning. There's zero classes today but I still have to come to work! ): I have just disinfected the toys, vacuumed the training room, go through attendance/registration list etc. I am so bored! And I only knock off at 7pm ):

I have read the newspaper online, have checked all my emails (which I have tonnes of), listened to all the songs in the computer (which isn't that many), picked up 1 call. I hope to goodness that no parents walk in or call today! PLEASE LET ME SPEND MY FRIDAY IN PEACE.

So anyway, I can't believe I'm back from my holidays ): just 2 days after touching down, I had to start working already. I wish I could slack some more! But work seems fun (minus the boring parts like now). I wanna go for training soon so that I have more things to do!

Shangri-la was awesome to the max. Tibetan guys are so handsome please! :/ I liked this particular guy who was exceptionally smiley. He just kept smiling and smiling haha. It was so cute. I wished I had more days in Shangri-la though.

Anyway I don't really know what to write. I just came on to el-jay because I had nothing to do ): maybe I shall go call up some friends to chat. Or maybe go take an extended lunch break :D YIPPEE WOO. But working in a shopping mall makes it that the eating places are perpetually crowded, ugh.

VBFF, I LOVE YOU LONG TIME K. I HAVE NOW PROCLAIMED IT LOUD AND PROUD TO THE WORLD WIDE WEB. How much deeper can my love go manxz!? :P

Thank you for everything these 5 years, Tarzan Boy! You are an integral part of my life (;

P/S: And this is not just because of the boxes okay. It's an accumulation! (: 

Omg I knew it was a bad idea to log onto Topshop's website. Now I can't get these 4 shoes out of my mind! Especially the first 3! ): oh what am I going to do?

 



So pretty please! I don't even know which one I'll choose if I had a choice.

Can I please buy the first 3 pairs? ): boohoo.

Today turned out to be rather nasty.

I have had this annoying dry cough since last week but today, it was so bad and I coughed my lunch out. In a nastier term, I vomited my lunch out in school. Twice.

But what made it better were the girls who were there for me (: 

Jasmine Toh - who was the first to witness me puking because she unexpectedly went to the washroom then returned to class, wanting to get her wallet to buy me warm water to settle my stomach.

Stephanie - who accompanied me to the canteen to get my warm water (while my group presented without me. I'm so sorry, girls!) and patted me each time I coughed in class.

Thank you girls, for postponing the movie date just because I wasn't feeling well.

Gladys, Pamela and my Pops - thank you for rushing to the toilet to find me the second time I ran off halfway to the washroom. Thank you for standing outside another lady's cubicle and asking if I were okay (even though I was on the other end :P) and thank you for making sure I had a proper meal after my lunch was dispelled from my system. 

Pops - thanks for the hugs! ((bighug))

Gladys - thank you for the "get-better-autography-session" LOL. I think it really did helped! 

Pamela - thank you for the smses in class! 

Isabella - thank you for turning back to ask me if I were okay, Bunny. I appreciate it a lot especially since you were 2 rows ahead and Mr Leow was speaking halfway :P

Geraldine - thank you for constantly asking me if I were okay and offering to get stuffs for me.

Lynnette - thank you for asking me if I were okay too haha. I'll remember to invite you to the 满月 in future! :P

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It's really true that you know who your true friends are when there's a crisis. Thank you for being there for me, girls! I love you all! <3

It's 4:22am and I'm still very much wide awake. This feeling totally suxorxz. I want to sleep, I need to sleep.

C'mon already! Just let me sleep, ugh.